One More Again?

As she walks by she breaks down in the inside
Got to keep face got to keep pretending
These lies we tell our selves eat away our crumbling heart
So close yet so apart Cant you see you created this unbearable reality
Why wont you fix it fix US I gave our love my all and more
Yet I'm the one screaming and slamming the doors
I wont get emotional I will keep up this facade till the end
Pin me down by you words dissect me with your mind
As we stand here we loose all tract of time
The arm she clings to was once mines the memories you gave me I erase them
Our chains you release and give me the peace of mind that I need?
My emotions run wild like a stampede I break free and press repeat
Silently but deadly our love kills slowly just a touch affects me
Quick while no one looking inject me with a kiss and leave me dying in sheer bliss
We stand there in our reserve space and reminisces
you scorch my face with your fingers And I disintegrate your heart with my words
A moment hesitation leads to eternity of regret what could have been what shouldn't happen?
Or the words that should have been said back then? Our love a continuous spin?
Again and again we suck each other in A finish yet no beginning
who is winning? Who is even keeping the score? When my heart hits the floor it make no sound
  Countdown to my breakdown as I stand around fading into the background
I drown in this pool of  misery and regret and project my sadness as happiness
Every touch every look makes me feel self conscious
Our lie's seem to be looking like a contest.....is this really us?
How much? How many times will we spin until our minds bend and hearts break
How come we can't learn from our mistakes
Forsake me as  I forsake you and let our love FINALLY be through

Darkness Is Where I Want To Descend

Sky isn't limited eternal continuous motion
Like the waves of the ocean my sins keep washing over me
Can't escape my destiny
Forever bound by this chain called reality
No fantasy no wishing myself into another galaxy
I release my lungs out and scream into pure ecstasy
Over what has taken over me
Fate foresees my destruction
A Little reconstruction minimal deduction and whole lot of suction
 My life hangs in the in between
Only Death awaits me
Turn right I see light turn left I see darkness
Who am I? I'm heartless cold unrelenting unmoving like winter's breeze
My body freeze my knee's buckled underneath me
I watch memories that are not mine to past earth time's
I decline earth opportunities for my only wish to live for all eternity

A Lover's Delay

Can't be still Can't stop moving 
Gotta keep on breathing
You are my reason
My damnation my bittersweet abomination?
No patience let the poison set in; my veins 
As my eyes roll to the back of my head 
I watch as it spreads to my brain
I can feel this delectable twinging pain
Mind possessed I try my best to suppressed my emotions
But how could I when my body's motions are not my own
Not weak yet not that strong
I prolong my inevitable delay by forcing you to stay
My body disobey and leave my heart into disarray
I like to think that some day I leave you or you leave me
But we both know that is unimaginable fantasy
Reality? There is none.
We come undone just to have another rerun another go blow for blow until there no blood flow

Fate Devices

Tears like bullets words like hail that pierces the soul
Masks unveil words unfold
Restriction loose their holds thoughts become told
Decisions become wage
Actions become portrayed
As destiny steps up on the stage
Life and Death engaged into a conversation
Who's reincarnation or cremation will begin and who will meet their end?
Fate apprehends the life that just begin and it spins out of control
Death role is in play now
So sit back and watch how he fixes Fate's mistakes
Consequences breaks life & meets opportunities
In a community with no immunities to death
They look to Destiny and asks what's next
Life is perplexed and looks on with envy.
On what they can't be what they can't do.
For this is strictly taboo.
Fate See's it in a different view
One can not exist without the other or both are through
Death pursues life Life pursues Death until there's nothing left
Both withdrew withdraw
To claw at Fate's coffin until it open
And once again all that remain was Fate's domain

Innocence Until Proven Guilty

Heart beating like a thunder storm
Mind racing not like the norm
Body shaking as if in major harm
Pulse vibrating like a firearm
As I tried to grasp the truth reality kicks & sets in
I can't believe the state I am in.Is this the end?
I transcend into another being. What am I seeing?
Why am I bleeding?
 Is this my blood or yours
Why am I here? Fear is what I taste let me retrace my steps
Hold up Death that can't be what is next
You can't have what you want at every beck and call
You just can't take it all
I want to crawl out this hole I dug my self in but then again
Inside my heart I wish I could hide
So I could never confide &  show you my cowardly side
Don't pick Don't pry
When I start to cry it's not because of you its because of my frustrations 
So please don't misunderstand the situation
And I dare you to judge my hesitation
Pa are you proud of me? My dedication?
Complication: guilt? Remorse?
I enforce my aggravation into one big altercation
If I pull the trigger now I wonder will you be my salvation or my damnation?
The devil whisper in my ear my most desire temptation
But I fill no such expectation cause my new life is waiting
So why am I hesitating. I will grab it by the reins
And my chains of despair will break away one day
But the darkness will never stray

Pity 's Joy

I am breathing I am alive
So why is there pity in your eyes
Hated despite all of you
You only know half the truth
Ears mute Eyes blind
As you try to grasp little of time
Don't climb the ladder of despair
Never thrown your arms out in the air
Cause when you think life is unfair
It will bare sweet fruit & make you forget about your foul mood
So don't secluded yourself in darkness
Warm your heart open your eyes
And wash off what you deny the most
Don't stand there like a ghost
Move! Be motivated
And watch your pain be elevated to unbearable joy
Don't listen to what others say they are just a decoy
So enjoy laugh as if everything in the past
Cause life is a blast

Love Agony and Joy???

I sabotage I evade
What I know won't fade
I try to erase your your existence
When I know there is little resistance
Irresistible chaotic dangerous are few to describe this feeling of being alive
Our paths collide
Inside my heart there is no place to hide
Why deny?
When I want to give this love a try
So I cried then died a little inside and release my stubborn pride
And the loneliness in my heart subsides
Our love will be our guide
So let us sit back and enjoy the ride